walking in a circle

it’s a very nice day today but the whether was kinda dry, don’t you think so? It has always been like this. the air is very much warm in every fasting season, if memory serves me right. I don’t know if it’s just me or some weird imagination but yeah, it’s kinda hot. anyway, happy fasting ya’ll. dont get very much tempted by the worldly things. get your responsibility done right.

i’ve been having too many weird dreams, lately. maybe i’ve been thinking to much stuff and they got carried in my dreams or so. who knows? i don’t. it’s hard not to think about it, to be honest. it feels like you don’t really wanna talk about it but something itchy inside your chest for not mentioning anything about them.  hmmm. you know, that kinda stuff. really, it’s very hard to understand but ngeh, whatever.

i woke up today and found myself pondering some interesting matter. i guess 10 years went kinda fast, you know. i remember nothing in these past 5 years. I was walking in a very fast track in life and that pace made my life getting closer and even faster to the end of the line. that’s how im feeling at the moment. oh my God, this is some scary shit im living in. It’s very haunting and killing. there’s so many things to be done yet they are so extremely huge to grab in one go. 10 years ago, the world was just a text book i read about everyday and 10 years later, im still lost in most of the notes i read so interestingly back then. this is a suicide, silently but very effective.

so many mistakes were done in the past 20 years and they keep haunting and hovering inside my head. yeah, people might just say stop leaving in the past. yes, that’s what we are fighting for and that’s what we are today, standing tall and acting tough but the burden stay and they lurk deep down the hell in you til’ the end of time. that’s how it is. sometimes it doesn’t end perfectly and if it’s not then it hurts. stop.

 another side story.

i’ve already been waiting for the new metallica album DEATH MAGNETIC to be released like 9 months or maybe more, and supposedly, it will be out on sept 12 but then some dude in france (taukey kedai/music stores owner) sold the new record yesterday causing a worldwide uproar for it.

all of the songs leaked in youtube/p2p softwares and i, myself, like sooooo many people in this world, who’s dying to have a glimpse of the new record lost to that kind of temptation. i’m sorry but i’ll definetly buy the record soon hehe. damn, it’s worth the wait. thank you for the beautiful music. yes, death is like a magnet and we are always drawn by it.

can’t stop listening to The Unforgiven III. there’s something about the song that i can relate to.  of course in my own sense of interpretation. The Day That Never Comes is also a good number to listen to. i found the record is so interesting with the usage of such great wordings.

here’s some beautiful quotes from the 2 songs. I guess i’ll have to wait for the booklet, though.

“how can i be lost if i got no where to go to”

“how can i blame you when it’s me i can’t forgive”

“Waiting for the one
The day that never comes
When you stand up and feel the warmth
But the sunshine never comes”

“I’ll splatter color on this gray”