walking in a circle

well here i am again. looking at the stars hidden deep in the depth of night while listening to the day that never comes. cold breeze chilling the air around now polluted by the smoke of a cigarette placed on top of the empty can of ice lemon tea. it’s time to blog. how cool is that?

i like to blog at time like this. when everyone in their own deep sleep, i rule the midnight air. the unforgiven 3 starts with strings, horns and piano, sounds very gloomy orchestra play if you me. anyhow, the song kick major a$$. badass, for sure.

it’s really peaceful and silent. isn’t it good if the world could stay forever like this when the morning comes? there’s a hope in every ray of light in every darkness but when the morning comes with the full morning ray, u guess, everything will automatically run wild. blood rush to the head and it ruins the peaceful moment. hope hunting starts. there you go, forgetting what is good with a silent night.

ahh, im longing for a windy place with chilling breeze to sit around and enjoying the view while listening to carmine street by kaki king. wind whisphering voices of peace and people do nothing but enjoying each others company.. oh damn, that sounds cool. I think melbourne is that kind of place. i guess i’ll need to dig a lot of money to go there. A LOT!!!

carmine st.

during my childhood, i can’t remember, maybe 14-15 years ago, i had an imagination of having to camp.. no, not camping, it was more like hangin’ around at the beach during night time with a small bone fire and a log to lay back or sit around with a bunch of friends and laughing at each others. i think it’s fun to do it, considering the happy go lucky friends im having right now. yup, i going to propose this and maybe we can work out something. so, anyone interested to help me with my childhood dream? lol. it should be fun. oh damn, i forgot something. i was supposed to have a girlfriend right next to me. damn. where the hell am i going to get one???

speaking of gf, my xgf IMed this evening. had it been 2 years already? can’t remember well. anyway, it’s kinda feel awkward a bit. you know, last time was a different story. not that she asked for answers or anything, just a friend to friend kinda chat but … it’s kinda funny, though. lol. the world was in my grip last time and it did feel like a special thing with the love sickness and all, but today… it’s kinda pale. nothing special. evenmore, i don’t feel like chatting. time passed by and things changed. yup, can’t agree more. she said so. lol. nahhh, love is nothing special after all. at least for me because i suX at it big time. that sums it all haha.

but then again, i lie. who doesn’t want a gf for God’s sake!!! LMAO.