walking in a circle

well here i am again. looking at the stars hidden deep in the depth of night while listening to the day that never comes. cold breeze chilling the air around now polluted by the smoke of a cigarette placed on top of the empty can of ice lemon tea. it’s time to blog. how cool is that?

i like to blog at time like this. when everyone in their own deep sleep, i rule the midnight air. the unforgiven 3 starts with strings, horns and piano, sounds very gloomy orchestra play if you me. anyhow, the song kick major a$$. badass, for sure.

it’s really peaceful and silent. isn’t it good if the world could stay forever like this when the morning comes? there’s a hope in every ray of light in every darkness but when the morning comes with the full morning ray, u guess, everything will automatically run wild. blood rush to the head and it ruins the peaceful moment. hope hunting starts. there you go, forgetting what is good with a silent night.

ahh, im longing for a windy place with chilling breeze to sit around and enjoying the view while listening to carmine street by kaki king. wind whisphering voices of peace and people do nothing but enjoying each others company.. oh damn, that sounds cool. I think melbourne is that kind of place. i guess i’ll need to dig a lot of money to go there. A LOT!!!

carmine st.

during my childhood, i can’t remember, maybe 14-15 years ago, i had an imagination of having to camp.. no, not camping, it was more like hangin’ around at the beach during night time with a small bone fire and a log to lay back or sit around with a bunch of friends and laughing at each others. i think it’s fun to do it, considering the happy go lucky friends im having right now. yup, i going to propose this and maybe we can work out something. so, anyone interested to help me with my childhood dream? lol. it should be fun. oh damn, i forgot something. i was supposed to have a girlfriend right next to me. damn. where the hell am i going to get one???

speaking of gf, my xgf IMed this evening. had it been 2 years already? can’t remember well. anyway, it’s kinda feel awkward a bit. you know, last time was a different story. not that she asked for answers or anything, just a friend to friend kinda chat but … it’s kinda funny, though. lol. the world was in my grip last time and it did feel like a special thing with the love sickness and all, but today… it’s kinda pale. nothing special. evenmore, i don’t feel like chatting. time passed by and things changed. yup, can’t agree more. she said so. lol. nahhh, love is nothing special after all. at least for me because i suX at it big time. that sums it all haha.

but then again, i lie. who doesn’t want a gf for God’s sake!!! LMAO.

it’s a very nice day today but the whether was kinda dry, don’t you think so? It has always been like this. the air is very much warm in every fasting season, if memory serves me right. I don’t know if it’s just me or some weird imagination but yeah, it’s kinda hot. anyway, happy fasting ya’ll. dont get very much tempted by the worldly things. get your responsibility done right.

i’ve been having too many weird dreams, lately. maybe i’ve been thinking to much stuff and they got carried in my dreams or so. who knows? i don’t. it’s hard not to think about it, to be honest. it feels like you don’t really wanna talk about it but something itchy inside your chest for not mentioning anything about them.  hmmm. you know, that kinda stuff. really, it’s very hard to understand but ngeh, whatever.

i woke up today and found myself pondering some interesting matter. i guess 10 years went kinda fast, you know. i remember nothing in these past 5 years. I was walking in a very fast track in life and that pace made my life getting closer and even faster to the end of the line. that’s how im feeling at the moment. oh my God, this is some scary shit im living in. It’s very haunting and killing. there’s so many things to be done yet they are so extremely huge to grab in one go. 10 years ago, the world was just a text book i read about everyday and 10 years later, im still lost in most of the notes i read so interestingly back then. this is a suicide, silently but very effective.

so many mistakes were done in the past 20 years and they keep haunting and hovering inside my head. yeah, people might just say stop leaving in the past. yes, that’s what we are fighting for and that’s what we are today, standing tall and acting tough but the burden stay and they lurk deep down the hell in you til’ the end of time. that’s how it is. sometimes it doesn’t end perfectly and if it’s not then it hurts. stop.

 another side story.

i’ve already been waiting for the new metallica album DEATH MAGNETIC to be released like 9 months or maybe more, and supposedly, it will be out on sept 12 but then some dude in france (taukey kedai/music stores owner) sold the new record yesterday causing a worldwide uproar for it.

all of the songs leaked in youtube/p2p softwares and i, myself, like sooooo many people in this world, who’s dying to have a glimpse of the new record lost to that kind of temptation. i’m sorry but i’ll definetly buy the record soon hehe. damn, it’s worth the wait. thank you for the beautiful music. yes, death is like a magnet and we are always drawn by it.

can’t stop listening to The Unforgiven III. there’s something about the song that i can relate to.  of course in my own sense of interpretation. The Day That Never Comes is also a good number to listen to. i found the record is so interesting with the usage of such great wordings.

here’s some beautiful quotes from the 2 songs. I guess i’ll have to wait for the booklet, though.

“how can i be lost if i got no where to go to”

“how can i blame you when it’s me i can’t forgive”

“Waiting for the one
The day that never comes
When you stand up and feel the warmth
But the sunshine never comes”

“I’ll splatter color on this gray”

so, no public holiday on  Sept 16 eh? I wonder, are we not going to celebrate the birthday of our so-called ‘MALAYSIAN FEDERATION’? I kept hearing from mouth to mouth, age by age, women, men, kids, and all of the one question ‘when did sabah get its independence?’.

We should be honouring the birthday of freedom just like other countries but i guess it never did had a birthday, after all. Hmmm. Coming to this year’s Sept 16 will be a surprise, i guess. With the turmoil of dreadful politic mind play, I am looking forward to see a new chapter in history. A change. A new dawn of malaysia and this time i hope it includes sabah. After all, we are one as a nation.

 Beautiful, isn’t it. Yes, it’s our flag.

ok. this is for all the music and guitar lovers out there, you might want to check out this guitar duo/prodigy Rodrigo Y Gabriela, for sure. Had them playing on my Realplayer for days now, non stop lol. Enjoy the sound of beautiful minds.

It’s kinda odd with the flow of traffic at the two most traffic lights i came across everyday. one is the fohsang-damai junction and the other is the main junction to lintas-kolombong-bundusan-fohsang. I find it odd somehow. They usually change colours less than 1 minute but nowadays, it takes like forever. Not to mention the odd colour changes. you might think the next turn will be yours but guess what, it’s NOT. It’s a strange world im living in. I mean, today, well i guess it includes you too.

ok here’s the link for the new Metallica song entitled The Day That Never Comes. I stayed up late til’ 5am this morning just to catch up with the preview of the song and i kinda satisfied with it. I don’t know how to summarize the song at the moment. It’s like a prefect mixture of fade to black, one, bleeding me, and all. i just can’t stop listening to it, you see. It’s been a while since i had my last good feed of a very good song. I don’t know though, I think it’s more about life frustration. Anyway, enjoy the guitar and solo fest.

Born to push you around
You better just stay down
You pull away
He hits the flesh
You hit the ground
Mouth so full of lies
Tend to black your eyes
Just keep them closed
Keep praying
Just keep waiting

Waiting for the one
The day that never comes
When you stand up and feel the warmth
But the sunshine never comes
No the sunshine never comes

Push you cross that line
Just stay down this time
Hide in yourself
Crawl in yourself
You’ll have your time
God I’ll make them pay
Take it back one day
I’ll end this day
I’ll splatter color on this gray

Waiting for the one
The day that never comes
When you stand up and feel the warmth
but the sunshine never comes

Love is a four letter word
And never spoken here
Love is a four letter word
Here in this prison
I suffer this no longer
I’ll put an end to
This I swear!
This I swear!
The sun will shine
This I swear!
This I swear!
This I swear!

so what happen to this blog, eh? I’ve been busying myself for the passed 2 months with stuff here and there. Things ain’t easy when it comes to catch a dream. Not easy at all but hey, who says it’s east, yes?

It’s a ghost town alright. No new entry, no shouting, no blog hopping and all. I’ll write a hell of entries next time, for sure.

Just finish watching the debate between the-talk-nothing-zero-crap vs. the super unknockable heavyweight AI and I can only say one thing…OWNED!!! Man, I was laughing all the way when that shebery dude is debating. Fail big time, dog.

AI : crap talker

1,000,000 : 0

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wahahahaha!!!!

ok here are some pictures I copied from Socmedia.com.my forum. I just wanna share you all the wonder of funny pakistan. Enjoy.

25 hours? . it’s surely a different world, really.

ketepi-ketepi AMBALANS mau lipas!!

 sori.. we don’t sell adidas here. it’s sdidsa. lol

NOKIA : ahh ni boleh bikin umban anjing

carriefour?

nahh doktor ali baba bujang lapuk ehehe

just so you know.. this is my ride bebeh.

who’s riding who?