yoku boitih

I hv two reasons of choosing dat num..

1) dats my lucky num

2) i was born on Sept, 19 ^_^

Cya after my convo!! wont be aroun til 3rd Dec..

Mwaxxx!!! KL, here i come again~~~

Sometyms it makes me ponder, is it a (bad) luck or is it just a coincidence? It’s not that I don’t like the sch,  I even opted for this sch before I was posted as I was really positive that this sch is ‘the one’..It never crossed in my mind that I wud regret my decision, not even once..the moment I opened my offer letter back in July 16th, I cried (silently)..a joyful cry to be exact..

Hmm back to what I’ve said earlier, I rather consider it to be a coincidence..with such an embarrassing headline in a local paper recently, my Gosh! All I cud do was just looking at the ground, closing my eyes n shook my head…mentality sesetengah org kampung (bukan semua ah!), nmpak sch rosak sana sini, trus blame the teachers.. look, anak sepa yg gatal tgn tumbuk dinding, tumbuk blackboard smpai patah mematah..anak sepa la yg dgn kreatifnya kasi lipat2 tu kipas smpai bkn mcm rupa kipas lg..anak sepa jg la yg diggin’ their own graves p kasi rusak tu electrical switches (bgus tekaran trus baru la kotoh kan!)

 So why pointing at the teachers?? Bebuihhh suda mulut cigu2 kasi nasihat, at the end of the day, masi jg betabiat! SALAH SEPA? Cigu?? Terpulang.. what we teachers know is we had enuff… OK, so we painted the school block today, (literally, and the whole block for God’s sake!) the odour of the paint is killing me up til now eventho we finished hours ago..Some students think they r creative enuff they end up leaving the walls and tables with some ‘creative messages’ (I bet everyone knows what I meant by dat)…lepas tu yg sedihnya, ciguuu la pula yg tpaksa sacrifice their time n energy p paint tu sch balik..ciss bertuah punya students!!  N worse, they thank the teachers by scratching looooooong lines on the teachers’ cars..now sepa mo kasi salah ni?? Lu pkir la sendri bilang c nabil…

Sa bkn nyesal ngajar ni sch, deep in my heart I feel so grateful to be there..sch kampung, nyamannn..sgt nyamann (despite the cows shittin here n there, satu kebiasaan la ba tu kan kalo d kampung2 sapi pun mo masuk sch jg ikut blajar kekeke), the fact is SAYA SGT SUKA ni sekolah except for some stuff la yg kdg2 bkin meluat,mo tahan hati jak…

K la, I think I’ve just successfully made u fall asleep with my entry today..siou kio..saja ni mo share2 isi hati ;p.. cya again…mwax!

p/s- look at the sight-seeing meadow just behind the sch..it works especially when ur eyes r nearly closed while waiting ur lesson to end.

I was tagged by Annie so here it goes..

 [1] Take a recent picture of yourself or take a picture of yourself right NOW!

LeNNy: ok done

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[2] DON’T change your clothes, DON’T fix your hair… Just take a picture.

LeNNy: okkk okkk..(thx to de pillow im huggin it covers my ‘baju kelawar’ so perfectly hahahah)

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[3] Post that picture with NO editing.

LeNNy: ok bos! im make-up free now for sure (no moles-counting,pls! ;p)

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[4] Post these instruction with your picture.

LeNNy: ta-daaa!!! 

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[5] Tag 10 people to do this.

LeNNy: everyone who reads my blog, help urself…hihihi 

        Today, I attended a course regarding the ‘Sistem Bimbingan Taulan’ (SBT), which was held in SMK Gunsanad II… I was quite worried at first since I dint have any idea of what this SBT is all about..(3 months of being a teacher, I never heard any of my colleagues talking about this, soooo like ‘covered by tempurung’ o0o me).Supposedly, this course should be attended by the penyelaras SBT itself but this useless fella lepas tgn n mcm c taik2 bagus ko blk kg ko tia pyh ngajar kin samak jak d kgau!! (marah to the max ni!).

        To let u know the truth, I am dissatisfied with ‘these ppl’ in my school… I hate to hear it whenever they say “ngam la kamu guru baru urus this n that, kami ni tua2 suda ni, mo rehat suda”..WTH! So mkn gaji buta la kamu tu kan?? It’s better for them to just quit their job, rather than making the staffroom occupied by such @#$%&! Mind u, I hv just began teaching for 3 months, n already the PK1 told me yesterday that starting next year, I’ll be the new KP for English panel!!!! HATE! HATE! HATE!! Ni la kalo sch kampung, mindset pun kampung! Pantang ada guru baru, sioookk jak mo memperkotak-katikkan keadaan..heh! GTH! What do u expect from a freshy like me? As far as I’m concerned, u cannot just ask someone wif very lil experience to be a KP..lain la kalo suda 2-3 thn ngajar, bole trima lg! ni yg stengah tahun pun nda smpai, hancussss la the sch! Heyy susahh susahhhh jd cigu…

       Looking at the bright side, ok lah..i am willing to accept the challenge..Wif my mom saying this, “alaa d sekolah mama, suma yg jd KP pun muda2, ok ja durang tu”, then bah ya lahh, KP pun KP la yg penting jgn tu PK1 menyesal kalo graph bi menjunam dgn cemerlang nti hahhahah (evil laff).. ndak beh kayeh.. palis2…hehe.Btw, I’m sure that 2009 wud b a tough year for me..Well..well..cheer up teacher Cayrls! Lyf without obstacles isn’t dat fun afterall… 

It’s Friday, n here i am, lazying aroun in da hse, not going to school (pamalas punya cigu!) cuz yesterday, enna n i hv already planned it dat we wont be in school today..syuhhhh!! (dun wurry peepz, kami bkn escape ngajar, kami p btugas ba for the MSKPPM (sukan guru2)…hehehe sambil2 escape btugas la ni… ;p

Nway, yesterday was de final day we were on-duty for the MSKPPM, in which we were asked to handle de scoresheet.. plg best, dpt btugas smbil tgk netball match…n i was kinda jelez looking at the players playing my favourite game! (ndakpa, tahun dpn musti sa join punya ni! i juz luv playing NETBALL! my favourite position is GS, as i used to be one, terrer ni shoot bola hahahah puji diri japs! ;p)

Back to the match, KGAU n SDK were qualified to the final, and as expected, it was such a tight match between both teams. SDK led the 1st half of the match with 20-14…. i cudnt sit on my a$$ in comfort, i cud feel the massive adrenaline rush watching the ‘battle’, as if i was one of the kgau players ..(sot~ haha)  de situation remained incredibly tense until kgau team tied the match with 22-22 during de 2nd half… i was the happiest creature in the hall (as if i was 1 of de players, once again ;p)  when kgau succeedly ‘trashed’ sdk (28-25) as the referee blew her whistle to confirm that kgau is still the champion ngeheheh..(org sdk jan mara kio..i adore the sdk’s goalshooter tho’, she’s damn TALL!)

Well..well..congrates to cigu2 kgau yg mmg terrer2 la, i hope i can join u guys next yr (silakak ba baru sa posting this yr,tu yg termissed tu) ..

till then..muaXXxxXXxx!!

So it’s been almost 2 months I didn’t post any entry.. Its not dat I don’t have de tym but u knw, since becoming a teacher, i always end up feelin tired when I got back home, and by the time I reach my lappy, my brain cudnt function well ody..Since today is my so-called SPECIAL day, I decided to type something dat I guess wud at least make me happy despite the fact dat I cudnt spend this very moment with my beloved soulmate, unlike yester-year..

19 Sept… I was born 24 years ago, exactly on the same date..  the one who used to be a small, tiny girl has now become a very pretty, gorgeous lady (uwekks ok im kiddin here), what I mean is I’ve tried to become a more matured person, emotionally and spiritually. When I look back the way I lived my life 4 years back, I kinda feelin disappointed with it..i didn’t do what is best for me back then..i was more of a person who likes to take things easily, not givin her best effort in everything she does.. for instance, during my college years, I never had an outstanding result (my achievements were only between 3.25 - 3.65 CPA) , my name was barely known by the lecturers, and I doubt dat they remember my face..wat a pity…But I know what past is past..let it be a history of my life, and a lesson to be learnt in the future..

NOW, as the years pass by, my focus is to be a responsible person who can make her parents be proud of her..plus,  someone who can bring changes to the school she is serving.. and yeah, instead of crying bout the past, I am so eager to face the future ahead.. challenges will be taken proudly..obstacles will be handled wisely..and my life will be lived SMARTLY! Amin…….

Sometyms i wonder, how in de world cud i end up becoming an English teacher..to tell u de truth, i nvr really lyked english subject since i was in primary sch.. i remember dat during every BI lesson, i wud be so passive, feelin so uncomfy, worryin dat de teacher wud call out my name n ask me to read texts or the scariest part was when he or she askd me to answer questions, in ENGLISH! Gosh how terrible de feeling was whenever it was my turn to answer cuz believe me, SPEAKING was my major weakness back then due to de fact dat i was raised in a non-english speakin family, (pa buli buat la, dad sampin jua speakin tp seingat sa nda parnah la dia mo ispiking london sma anak2 dia ni, c mamy pula kalu english ni plg la dia nda terer dia blang sejak dulu2, so we end up speakin in malay la smpai la ni ari) Anyhow, it was my luck dat i managed to obtain A in both UPSR n PMR for english subject..n miracle happened when i got A1 in SPM, which then had qualified me to take TESL course..(syukur brabis sma tuhan bei…)

You might b judgin me from the way i write my blog, too much so-called ’spelling error’ hahah..when ‘de’ is supposed to be ‘the’..n a lot more errors..who cares kan? mls tul mo skema kalu d blog, len la tym ngajar..huhuhuh….Nway, i just wanna share sum of my experiences while doin my practical in S.M ‘toooot’, situated in Tg aru.. first2, bagagar jua tampurung lutut wen my name was mentioned to teach thr… S.M. ‘toooot’ baituh, sepa nda kanal, anak duktur la, lawyer la..but then again, wif my head up high, (pura2 confident la tu kunun kuhkuh) i was able to conduct every lesson succesfully..owh ya, I remembered the first day i entered the class, i made a student cry!! kotigok my heart brabis cuz sa langsung x mara dia ba, sa jz tnya “why did u say dat u’r naughty?” Actually before dat, i heard she sed sumthin lyk dis “teacher, i am naughty!” (dlm ati sa, bah..tiba2 jg ni saturang bdk ni, ndada sa tnya pun..bei…sot..) Back to the incident, i then asked la her, “why dyu cry?” krukk.. krukkk..(silence~)  dlm ati sa lg, mataiii la sa ni, apa nasib ni kasi nangis bdk, 1st day lg tu.. yg bida dia ni, ngam2 dat tym, de PK1 limpas my class, pa lg, trus dia soalselidik la sa psl tu bdk nangis..

MALANG bah sa dat day, gara2 tu bdk laitu, ada plak tiba2 nangis, kin pns! trus from dat day on, de PK1 nda trust sa ni, dia ckp sa ni nda pndai ctrl murid la, itu la ini la..bla bla bla..yg paaaaaling lg kin panas sa, buli2 dia p repot sma Principal yg sa kasi nangis bdk..soii!! to make thing worse, dat principal trus2 bg surat sma guru pembimbing sa (Miss X), kunu2 dia suru c Miss X pantau sa tiap2 minggu..tension gila babz bah trus sa..pulang2 jak ari tu, sa trus kol mem, (nangis2 ah, jan men2 hahahha) Syukur la miss X ni understandin urg dia..dia nda pnah pun p pantau sa spanjang 3 bln prctical..huhuhu.. (lebiu miss X..ur da besh!!) Wat an experience i had…n cuz of dat, i promised to myself dat i’ll prove them (de tongo PK1 + bongol Principal) wrong! n i did it!

In the end, out of 22 of us, only 3 were qualified to get the ‘anugerah cemerlang’ for practicum (distinction award)..n lucky me, i was 1 of them.. (bkn mo membangga2 ah but sa sendri pun nda pcaya bah mula2 hehehe) but kotoh la, baru la tu PK1 n Principal taik pdn muka! bilang sa nda pndi ctrl clas laa..apa la..skg bru ko tau brapa bgus nya sa ngajar anak murid ko! pheh! (aiseh tunjuk prasaan kunu ni hhuhuhu)

Now forget bout my experience, my point is, it’s true dat ‘NOTHIN IS IMPOSSIBLE’…kanapa lah kalu ko dr darat ka..ulu ka.. or whether u come frm english-speakin background or not, wif a lil bit of hard work, english isnt much a problem afterall…so, people out thr yg masi rasa BI tu 1 masalah besar, dun wurry, ive proved to u guys dat even a kampung girl lyk me can do it..

Bah palagi! p baca tu kamus! (miahahah mcm c taik2 la ba ni cigu kan ;P)

cya in my next entry….mwaXXx!

asiha vonsoi auh orou hitu..kando alapon rah pahun, anturung yak am akan-akan am inum-inum yak sangulun…andai ngah nasip ku vai, sanggilan ki auh hitu angkaraja??

Heeeeheee…seems lyk my murut is getting worse..wif less practice, i doubt dat i can speak murut language in 10 yrs 2 come..mataii nodi…

bleh~~~ karas ba ni lidah uda..hadeh..uda la dusun pun hangkang! kin malu ja kalu urg tnya ko bangsa apa, jwp DUSUN, skali kana suru ckp, teiiii habuk pun tarak..paham dusun pun ndak..nasip la tecover skit cuz campin skit2 kalu murut..huhuhu..

~anyone can help me wif dusun ka here?? ;P

He’ll be leaving sabah in less than 15 days n i knw im gonna miss him so much…we’ve been in a relationship for about 2 yrs, lots of thing hv been done n shared 2gther, be it sweet or bitter, and thank God, those things hv kept us more n more in luv with each other..

To start wif, i hv nvr thot dat i wud fall for a guy lyk him n to b honest, he’s my junior in my college. Wit 3yrs gap of age, i was actly kinda worried to tell my frens dat i was in a r’ship wit him ( our culture has stereotyped dat we girls shud nvr get a younger guy 2 b our special one or bf in short..) well, apart from my sisters, it was only my room mate that has figured it out (our r’ship).. I had successfully kept it hidden well for abt 6months from my other frens, including my own bestfriends..

As day passes by, our r’ship is no more a secret..n it seems lyk everyone is ok wif it (tho i nvr knw if they were badmouthing bout us at our back, i dont give a damn care!) Eventho he’s 3 yrs younger than me, he looks quite mature for his age..(well, even sum ppl said dat he’s a playful guy n sumtyms quite immatured, but for me, its enuf dat he didnt show his immaturity when he’s wif me..) n most importantly, he really treats me lyk a princess, whc made me swore dat i wud nvr find another guy for the rest of my lyf…

But nw dat he’s leavin, i knw i wud b lost cos since de past 1 yr, we were owez 2gther, go mamam 2gther, tgk mvie, lepak2, men bsktball 2gther, men badminton, k-boxin’, eeeee i cudnt imagine my world without him soon..i jz pray for de best, hopefully our long-distance r’ship wud strengthen our love more..

To Zakrie Safwan T. …i love u wif all my heart! may God bless our r’ship! mwahXx!

Ehemm dun get me wrong here k prens ..wat i mean by ‘big day’ is not my engagemnt or  wedding day.. its actly my first day of BEING a T-CHER..wud b sumwhr on july or worse, next yr (january, hopefully not!)

Hv been at home since last May  spendin tym being a part-tym maid, and down here wud b my daily routine:

wake up at 9++am (wat kind of sumandak am i??? ndak kana kawin la ini mcm tau palis2)

masak mjadi kwajipan at 10++ til 12++…. (dad p upis, mem ngajar d skul, so sa la yg btanggung jwb mjaga hal2 mlibatkan makanan n permakanan..tukeii..kalah2 ckp menteri kuhkuh)

pastuh 12++ smpi la 5++ sa mengenjoykan diri sendiri (jgn pkir bkn2 kio!) actly sa p kuar minum2 sma soulmate sa c ‘Z’..p mnum2 sna tienyen..sadap o0 teh madras d sna!!….deiii kuar topic uda ni…huhuhu..kalu nda kuar mnum, c Z dtg p umah, so d umah la kami mnum2…n bru td kami men bdminton dpn umah..panat ni skg…huh…

Pas njoy, sa trus p bungkar tu fridge, cari pa brg mo masak..mo meneruskan tnggungjwb sbg anak pompuan mithali…(bkn mo mbangga mcm banggali, tp sa ni kalu bab memasak, slalu dpt pujian dr mem..nda tau la kalu dia sngaja puji supaya sa rajin msk ;p mudahan ndak la…aww malu i angkat bkul sndiri..)

Lpas msk pa suma, mandi….pastuh mkn…pastuh tgk tv…(currently sa suka tul tingu tu BOLOS..huahuahua punya lucuh! tym ptg nda tetengok kan, cuz sbuk d dpur..so mlm la sa membls dendam! yeahhh bolos aja dinding itoooooo!!!!)

Siuk o0 kan bloggin ni, sa uda pnah jua ba blogin2 ni, tp lama uda tbranti, cuz bz kunu kan study..1thn uda sa branti..skg tsmbung blk..makaseh bebanyak kpd OKK Benneh! dia yg promot ni sma sa.. ;D

K la…nti mlm skit lg sa smbg…skg ni kana pgl uda mem, misti kana suru msk ni sa tau uda…pdhal bru jam 7pm.. yalaaa yalaaa, sa mo p msk uda ni..cya again!! muaX!