SomEthiNg Inside Of My HeaD…

hum… lama sdh sya nda blogging.. huu..like 1 month odi o.. just blogging coz ni blog lama nda buka.. just got bek from labuan this week. actually was suppose to go bek  this 29, but tHen last Month my bday was like on the 26 august… kekekeke..sedih dis…coz 21st bday suppose to be spesel for me.. huuu..21 years old..hve to be more mature..act like ur age… pple say..even my dressing pun yg mcm e2 budak tngaktan2 pnya..haha..wear shoes..not heels..or flats.. oni on certain ocasions i’ll wear lar..but not wif my frens around..=.= ..only family members.. haha.. ok..sO, i was suppose to go bek on the 29, tpi time bday sya… mmngis Ni hahaha.. sampai daddy pun nda paham apa sya sakap..awkkawkawkaw~!! then dia tNya.. when u coming bek.. i told him..29th/09.. he say.. hah?? lama lgi O..he katwa dis.. =.=.. sambil nngis2 i say.. i wan go bek dis.. then he say..ok lar.. huhu..hepi o me dat time..coz like 2  months nda jmpa ma durang..i Know… am lucky..coz  my dad understand..lols… just dat..i just cant live w/o my fam bha.. huhu..i cant imagine O kalu duraNg xda.. and also am hepi ada sisters yg sputing walaupun kami smua adikbradik sumandak..but i feel so lucky having them around.. i just feel so2 lucky.. hehe..i love theM Bha.. next weeek going bek to labuan again.. jmpa fam again..go braya.. haha..

 1 year Odi here in KL… but still same old shera.. =.=.. huu..i miss home so much..very2 much.. just now i went to class.. ad presentation… Literature 2 pnya subject.. volunteer lagi 1st maw present..haha..nda taw apa jin masuk ni badan..maw present 1st..haha..nasib Ok..walaupun simple..dapat juga jawab soalan2 yg durang Bgi ni.. kekekek…then..lect bagi balik awal sbb sya tipu dia saya ada hal maw urus..wakkakakaka!! class ganti bha tuh..e2 la Bha..hahahaha! Now i jusT canT wait to go bek again!! sleeping on my own Bed…. yg comfortable.. hihi..

NGeh!! e2 jak kali my Blog 4 Now..haha..

P/s: xda2 bha BLog sya ni~

huhuhu..  nda taw kenapa, kalu setiap bulan 8 kan.. misti ada satu hari yg sya demam, actually masih demam, i still ingat kan, 1st time sya dtng p kl, bulan 8 juga, kana damam juga, tpi dat time ada daddy sya.. jdi ok la sikit, this time.. xda daddy sya owh… saturang sya menanggung sakit.. huhuhu.. bawa diri sendri p jumpa duktur.. tpi, at least am being independat, kmrin, satu malam saya nda dapat modop, modop jam 10.30, skali bgun, pikir jam 7 pgi ka, skali tgk, bru jam 12 tgah malam, punya seksa sya mlm tuh.. huhuhu.. roomate lgi yg satu p clubbing,, another one nda lagi tggal sini… bgun sndri p bilik air ambil tuala kasi basah. wakakkakaka..  after modop, but still time modop tuh sya masih rasa headache, maybe e2 headache pun masuk mimpi owh.. wakkaakkaka.. tpi, mmg sakit la dat time, pakai sweater pun masih rasa sakit.. =.= aish… i know am big oredy, tpi sya menangis saturang sana sbb family smua d labuan, kalu nda ..durang yg jaga.. huhuhu.. next day, ada ok sikit la,, daddy called.. talk to mummy, menangis again.. tpi dia nda taw la.. sbb sya tahan2 sora kan.. tpi e2 air mata mengalir.. wakkakakakaka!!! I KNOW.. AM a cry baby… huhuhu… typing this blog pun sya masih rasa a lil bit of a headache, bulum mkan apa2 pun sbb xda selera owH kalu sakit.. rindu pla ma c nelly, kawan yg sya kenal d mirc, but now.. jdi kawan rapat sya d kl.. hehe..

 hurM… my roomate yg nda tggal di sini, buat hal lgi smlm… barang2 blum abis packing, but actually she cant stay in this hse anymore, sbb deposit kana bgi balik sdh… lgi pun she nda bayar sewa rumah sdh kan.. so, smlm agent datang, minta dia kluar kan all her things.. bleh2 dia lawan sama e2 agent. bla..bla..bla..agent cakap.. ‘bile nak kasi kluar sume brang?” trus roomate sya bilang.. ‘ brang i jen and shera tgah pakai, jdi nnti2 le..’.. pnya silaka dia bilang g2… padahal e2 tilam dia bilang maw taru sini dulu keno because dia skrng menumpang di merata2 tampat.. and the almari dlm bilik dia kasi jual sama c jen sdh.. huhu.. nokotigok my hart dia p sakap g2.. buli2 p jual nama kami dua.. nnti kana saspek tolong2 dia keno.. sit owh.. ni la ni urang semenanjung.. aish.. bkn sya maw sakap buruk bha pasal EX hsemate sya ni.. tpi kami tolong dia bnyk sdh.. buli2 dia p jual nama kami.. aish… sampai c Jen msuk bilik ttup e2 pintu kuat2.. mengadu dia sama sya.. haha.. but me.. kalu buli .. maw elak konflik la… huhuhu..

kemarin sya p Uni… maw minta approvel dari admin.. maw kasi lekat flyers kami kan.. sbb kami pnya club BSS(Borneo Student Society) maw bt event kan.. huhu.. ssah taw maw bt event.. kana sakap2 oleh club2 len.. of of it is like this.. ” BSS?? nak Bt event??? akaun pun xde”.. silaka pnya urang sya bilang.. club sabah sarawak kana pandang rendah pleh club len sbb kami dari sabah and sarawak.. tpi.. now.. the event is on its way to be held.. ^^.. happy jua la dapat bt event.. kasi aktif lagi ni club BSS..  ok..sambung crita.. maw p minta approval kan.. msuk p office admin.. adess.. tahan hati sija la… e2 kerani sana dakat pintu sakap ” event ape ni?” trus kami jawab la.. Bss pnya event.. e2 muka mcm maw kasi cop nda maw kasi cop.. silaka butul.. tpi dia kasi cop juga la.. hehe.. ssah betul maw deal sama urang2 kl ni.. kalu taw kami dari kelab BSS.. misti e2 muka mcm maw layan nda maw layan.. but anyway… it gives me experience that urang kl sama urang sabah.. nda sama.. wkakakakakak!!!  i’ll stop my blog here.. maw p cari mkan d  bawah..  lapar owh.. huhu..

P/S: xda2 Bha blog sya ni..

alO!! lama nda sya PosT bLoG owH since that daY abOut My slang experience .. hehehe… doi. starT sem baru, new subject and all.. bkin takanan OoOOO.. kdng2 kaN..mcm maw stoP stdy oni OwH.. but i knOw.. my pareNts sMua put hope On me… walaupUn sya Bkn the eldeSt, tPi.. cause. i aM the first to continue my stdy KaN…  kalu stdY.. iNGt maw karaJa.. kalu karaja bru ingt maw sTdy OooO.. buring2.. i GUess kaN.. dua2 Pun sama sija.. sama takanaN tPi berBeza la The environmenT.. but weLL.. Life Ma.. jdi just gO on witH it onlY la.. hahaha.. actuaLLy, Now me aT the U pnya lib Bha.. burinG OooOO.. decideD to Go to U awaL.. jam 2 ada class.. skrNg bru jam 12… huhuhu.. tGGu jaK la… lecturer Yg nnti laGi… huhuhu.. Kin takut.. prOvOkiNg The students.. and like he doesNt waNna trima paNdaNgaN studenTs dis.. haiz..    len2 Bha uraNg KL neH.. mals Sya ooO..  bUT.. tahan sija la.. sampai akhiR semesTeR.. huwaa2~~~

 NewaY.. last NiTe.. i OpeNed my kazen pNYA fS bHA..  it seeMs thaT, she still misseS her Bf yg oredi passeD awaY 3 monThs AgO.. dunt Know why she kenOt lUpa hIm.. she’s form 5 ni taHun.. manGkaLi she talampaU berharaP yg the guY will be wif her forever bha… huhuhu.. kesiaN juGa.. owez i teLL her.. Time will heaL.. sOMetimes i teriNgat juga The Guy.. cause He oweZ p rumaH kaLu ada paRty2.. my whOle family was grieving for Him.. sad Huh?? yaH.. i KnOw.. NNti next yeaR CNY, teDa satay sdH.. sBb dia Yg slalU toloNk ordeR The sataY.. But, sdH ajal dia KaN.. huhu.. i Mish thaT guy Juga.. slalu tease Me kaLu berjMpa.. =S. OK..eNuFf of the saD sTorY..

Um2…. BuriNg2.. OOoOOOo… lama LaGi cLAsss.. ngaNtUk OOOo.. k la… saMBuNg surf2 inTnet keno Ni.. Hhaa

aisH…~~ heLo2..Lama Owh sya nda berbLoG kaN.. maw bT blog bha..TPi xda masa Ni..bz wif My stdY … NewAY.. was thiNkIng of writiNg a Blog boUt My laNguaGe sini kL.. Haha..taw la kaN..bahasa KL and sabaH Bnyk beza Ni.. OK… thaT day Bha kaN..sya nek teKsi maw P camPus.. So.. saYa nda Juga brapa taw jalN2 dia sNi bHa… sO tu teKsi dribeR Tnya la… maSuk siMpaNg Mna… TrU sya BilaNg.. ” Limpas sana mangkaLi”…wakakakka!! Trus bru sya sadaR..sya tersakaP LiMPas.. wahahahahha… sya Nmpk tu Teksi driber pNya Muka len Ni TRus… muka berKerUt..MIsti dia heraN… apa ka Limpas e2?? wakakkaka.. Trus sya bilaNg.. ” eH.. lalu saNa”… wahahahha..bayanGkaN..maw dekaT saTu taHun sdH sya snI kL…bhasa sabaH sya masi karas… Lol..bUt am proud..because i dUnt hve to Be Like OThers… yg bertriP KL..which alwaYs gets on My neRve…^^.. ni laGi.. sama Juga..saya neK teksi sama coUrseMate sya kaN.. sO..tu teksi Driber Tnya La… bLa2…sya Jawab… ya.. Iya.. kawan sya Tu budak kelantaN.. Trus Tu teksi drIber tnYa.. erM… orang indOn ke?? =.= .. wakakakkaka.. Trus sya BilaNg.. nda la.. orng sabah… hahaha… mantaNg2 sya Pnya “Ya” BkN “Ye”.. dia bilaNg sya dari indON… huhuhu.. ntah la..maybe cOz sama keNo slanG indoN sama sabahaN ni.. BUt… aNythiNg Pun.. saya masih kekaL sama slang sabah sya.. eveN kawaN sya uraNg KL pun srUh sya jGn triP KL..time sya maw bLjr2 keNo baHasa KL ni.. hahaha… uM… sO i guess.. e2 siJa La… My srita pasaL slaNg sY d KL… hehehe…

p/s: Xda2 bha BlG sya Ni.. Lol.. ^^V

Hurm..its Like 4.38 am in the MorniNg… yaH…i shud Be asleeP, But sya BLum lGi P tdUR… erM…  sO bOred that i deCidEd TO dO my BLoG la… sUmtImes i feeL lIke a TotaL idiOt because… i dUnt know wHy, But sUMhow i Like The feeliNg of beinG DePReSsed wif Love… stuPid huH?? i kNow.. aLL My Life…Love is a failuRe for Me.. haveNt get tO meet Mr.Right.. -_-.. jiwanG eH..sIt! wakakakkak! sya RAsa kaN… the feeliNg of beinG frUst wif Love is SoMehOw…. i Like it when i felt thaT waY…. lol… suka BTuL maw pikir pKara Yg sedih2..dGr2 laGu sedih sambiL FrusT saturaNg saNa..wakakakakk!! taLkiNg aBoUt sONgs.. i was JusT wONderiNg… if u GUys dGR laGu kaN… TRus teringt soMeOne or aNy kejadian ka… sBb… kaLu sya..BNyk ni laGu yG kasi sya Ingt baLik Ni sama memori lama ataU certain urNg… Haha~ nda la bnYk BUt…TgK LisT duLu :

 Piupusan Sogisisom,Nokosuai GinawoKu,kirORo- teriNgat sinta laMa sya saNa kpNg..wakakakakaka!!

25minutes- i ingT my dad Pla…he lOve That sONg…. sLalu dGr time kisiL2 dlm krita..

auKU insaN GumaaB-ni PUn kasi iNgt sya sinta pertaMa sya… aDeSs….

wasted,big girls dont cry- ni LaGu laGi la… kasi iNgt sYa time baLik kpNg pakai krita sBb, time On the waY ..sya dgR ni laGu dlM mp4 sya…dats why, whenever i heaR this soNg..MMg inG kaMpung… uhuhuhu~

 nokuro- nGehehehehe..ni laGu Pla..reminds me Of muMMy sya Pnya yoUnger  brother d kpng… dia mnanG e2 suganDoi time kaamtan nyaNyi ni laGu… RNdu kmpNg tRus.. :S

ku tetap cinta yesus selamanya- LoO..ni laGu sya dGR…time d kmpNg juga..duraNg Bt e2 sukaNeKa utk kaamtaN…duraNg p pasNg Ni laGu..1st dGr trUs sya jtUh siNta… biaRpun sya Bkn christiaN… hehe~

memOries-within teMptatiON- naH..ni laGu laGi La..kasi iNGt sya Time… paalinG firsT sya meN chaTtiNg..hOhO..chattiNg d MSn sambiL dgr ni laGu..lOl..

okoN kOh winOnsOi woNsOi-danny f malinGgi- woOOHOoO.. nI laGu la Yg Bt sya jtUh sInta ma urang2 kaDus!!! heheheh~ ni la laGu yg sya dGr sana carta dusUn biarpun sya nda PahaM.. jTuh sinta tRus sama e2 laGu… thUn 2006..ujuNg tahun 2006 owh…waa..lama sdH.. heraN..pndai NyaNyi dusuN..tPi sakap dusun..lanGsuNg gagaL.awkawkwakawk!!

karma-cokeLat- reMinds me Of my kazen2 llKi jaMmiNg Ni laGu… 1st time sya NmPk uraNg jammiNg live band…wahahahahahaha… sakai eH… -_-

kekekeke…maw LisT laGi,,BNyK owH sya rasa…. i Miss The PasT… BUt whaTever Pun… u cant turN back Time…JusT walk forwArd and tRy To achieVe uR dreaMs.. :).. 4.54am sdh owH.. bgus sya P MoDoP..haha… nda lama ni mata jdi mCm panda sdH… wahaahahhaha… k…Nyte…. KopisanangaN tOtuONg(MuMMy sya ajaR..ekeek)

p/s: bLoG sya Xda2 Bha… wkakawkawkawkaw!!!!

huhu..laMa nda isi Ni bLoG..Lupa ni kdNg2.. NewaY…Mcm besa iduP sya d KL…BOred…LoneLy…erM2..LoneLy sbb Xda Frens Yg samA kapaLA Ni…huhuhu… smua bdak sabaH yg sya Jmpa triP Kl uda Ni…haiz…Kin maLu siJa… ckap kaL..TPi ada sampUr2 Mcm ‘AnU’,'Nda’..wuakakakak!! Lucu ButuL OwH… sejaK d kL kaN…MMg saya sLalu be awaRe Of My enviroNmeNt… Lol… di tmpaT UraNg..mnaTaw TerJmpa UraNg2 saBaH kaN..SkaLi TGk..isk..sMua triP2 KL..kin mlas Ni…  sya ButUl2 araP owH…camPus d saBAH nnTi ada uda BidanG sya… kaLu ada kaN..KomPOM TRus baLik sabah Ni…aahahhaha.. skrNg Pun  sya jRNg uda Nngis2…sBb NNti Nexdt mOnTh Pun sya BaLik laBuan..cuti satu Mnggu TPi kna sRuh juga baLik laBuaN Ni..daddY nda sRUh kaN kaLu saturaNg… he Wud saY.. ‘No NiD,Balik laBuaN Only’…LoL… jdi pelaNggan ttaP aiRasia sdH Nih…hahahaha…

arI TuH… dsBbkaN BuriNg …sya kasi temaN One Of my freN…yg sya knal d IRc…gurL la OPkos…dia dtNg p KL Utk holidaY… mMg lama uda kaMi kuntik2 ..cUma BuLum Jmpa… jdi.. kira RapaT JUga la.. sO..kMi maw P jMpa kawN bHa..d sungei wanG la Kunu..TGGu Pnya TGGu…dia nda dTNg…huhuhuhu…. TRUs…kami plaNniNg maw P tmpat dia la… pasL dia PnaT kaRaJa Bha..Tula nda dtNg….ahahahaha..sO..kami dua Ni maw P tmPaT dia la…Byngkan la..sdH la dua2 nda taw Papa…maw Jln la p tampaT jaUh..daRi Kl senTraL kaMi neK kTM p NilaI..pnya jaUh..wakakakkaak!! nsiB nda ssaT..tPi sIuK juga la..sBB sya Tia pNh laGi p saNa…sampai taMpaT kawN… jaM 5… Trus maw baLik p kL senTral kami jln jam 9 g2 la..saMpai KL seNtraL jaM 10 lebih G2…pnaT la..dLm kTm sdH ngaNtuk2 Ni…hahah..But iT was fuN…lOl..nasib nda ssaT la.. BUt kaLu daDdy sya taw sya P jaUh2 daRi tMpaT sya stdY..KomPOm kana MraH Ni…huhu.. daT day pUn sya ikUt kawaN sya p baLiK jOHor..ni gara2 taKUt kUnun..sBb ni rumaH mcM maKin hauNted..wakakaka..maYbe imaginasi jaK Bha..nasiB daDdy nda mrH… huhuhuhu…BUt i know he’s sO woRried…mumMy sya laGi la…”waa…kalu g2..kaw sdh sampai JoHOr laiTu?” hahahaha… BUt aNywaY… sya tia maw ikUt sdH baLik JohOr..kin taKut kalu Mlm2..BNyk ni Luri2 basaR…lajU laGi Tu bas drive..adeSs…BUt anywaY… beiNg In KL is suMtimes fuN and suMtImes nOt…

2 minGgU keNa bagi cuTi..sya kasi taMbah 2 MnGgu …. mlas Bha sya maw baLik Kl awaL.. i duNt know Y in the 1st pLace I chOose a place That is faR from My family and i duNt Know anyboDy here… kdng2 saya menYesaL Juga…TPi…pa BLeH buaT kan… beiNg here… am trYiNg To be indePendeNt..haha…slaLu ada daddY, muMmy Or my sisTers To heLp me, But Not Now… kMriN sya baru baLik daRi laBuaN, tpi aFter 1 MoNtH sYa baLik laGi p laBuaN…. tPi cutI satu mNggu jaK… daDdy sRuH balik…jdi sya baLik la.. saya taw dia taKUt Sya jdi MCm one Of the wild girlS in KL…doIng unheaLtHy activiTies…i gUess…thats Y he alwaYs ask me To gO bacK laBuaN wheNever i holidaY… tPi…ok Juga La…nda Juga sya Nngis2 Rndu2 family sya talaMpaU… wahahahaha… roomaTe sya slalu teGur, Knp sya slaLu Nngis… hOmesick kaN…tU la bha uraNg Nngis.. samPaI dia laNg laGi… dia anaK maNJa, tpI nda Juga dia Nngis slalu… Bha..Mmg la bha..becaUse U haVe uR SisTeRs here NeaR you`!!!! damM It eH~!! Mlas sya kdng2… benci kuNUn tGk uraNg NnGis,,,kaLu Bnci diam2 LA Bha… biaR la bha sya NnGis saturaNg… heheheheheh…. i admit that i aM a cry baby… Mmg pUn… sO whaT… nda KAN maw TahaN sija… saturaNg d bandar yg basaR … iTs NoT easY as yOu tiNk…  Mcm sya lang tdi..nda taw knP sya p pliH utK stdy sNi… maYbe at that time sya fkir yG i caN hidUp Bha d bandar Ni…. gadis kaMpuNg dari laBuaN p bandar basaR…  aNywaY… sya haraP…lama2..nda laGi sya NnGis kaLu baLiK Kl la… wahahahahha….

Um…. lama uda sya nda berbLoggiNg cause sya d LaBuan Uda…hapPy2 ..xda NnGis uda .. caNt smiLe..caNt laugH ryTe Now…. sya fkir…lePas auNty saya Passed awaY duLu..pasni..xda uda oRng yg terdekat passed awaY… But..u caNt predict the fUtuRe… a FamiLy freN of mIne JusT passed awaY 3 dayS aGO…terKejUt bIla kaNa kasTaw tu brIta… TrUs TtuP mUka meNaNgiS…. Yg paLiNg ssaH is To teLL kazeN sya la…sBb e2 eX boY dia….biaRpUn duraNg nda saMa2 uda…Tpi tu llki TetaP sRuh kazeN sya tgGu…. sBB sebelUm breaK..duRaNg kiRa laMa uda… sdh 2 Thun…Tpi last yeaR breaK, But i Know duraNg masih ada Tu perasaaN siNta… Its So haRd To face it.. bygKaN..tba2 sija trima brita g2…. samPaI skRNg..sya MAsih nda Bleh TriMa haKikaT Yg dia Xda uda d dunia ni..sya MasiH rasa Dia ada d Kk…stdy saNa iKm Kk…. 3 hari sbLum dia peRgi foreVer..dia BrU maw masuk 2o thUn… so YoUng To Die… sampaI sya rasa McM sya gila owH… sBb i stiLL canT faCe the FacT thaT he Is gOne forEveR… kesiaN sya tgK kazeN sya… =’( …… But apa Bleh buaT…iT faTe…. kaLu ada paRTy….dia MisTi slaLu dtng… ThUn baRU….xMas…cHineSe New yeaR and even Bday paRty mmG dia ada kaLu dia baLik laBuaN sBb dia mCm keluaRga sndri uda… sediHNya Me Now… i Hope That His souL resT in peaCe.. btuL2 rasa seDih OwH sBb dia peRGi uda…. kaLu la dia nda speed The caR untiLL 220km… maybe he’s stiLl aLiVe TodaY… =’(

smLm Bha Kan…roomate sya Ni…bawa kami p makan la…saya Tia maw ikUt bha…Tpi, kana BalaNja makaN satay…Ngam2 laGi…lama uda nda mkaN satay…jdi, sya ikUt sija La…laGipUn…mkan pRee kaN… Bf dia balanja..ok la..sBB bf dia sya Tgk…Mmg ok la.. sO…nek la krita kAn..sampi hiGhwaY kaN…adeS…maw bagaGar janTunG sya Owh..becaUse….Bf dia bawa krita kaN Pnya laJu!!! spnjaNg jLn…ngiLu badaN syA owH..sBb saya Mmg nda suka speeD….uhuhuhuhu…BtuL la ni UraNg Kl sUka lmba2..sBB bf dia Ni..and termasuk hseMate sya tu la..Mmg kaki raciNg…meter limpas 100..nda ka maTi sanA..kepaLa pun peNiNg owh nek tu krita..dalam aTi..bila la maw samPai Tu tampaT…jauh laGi tuh….kelana jaYa p kajang…uhuhu..tpI nda aPA…gara2 maw maKN sataY kaN…Sbb duraNg laNg satay kajang Mmg sadaP… and time dalam krita Tuh…sya Pnya utaK pikiR..i’ll be like So freaKin deaD kalu my dead Knows sya kluaR maLm gara2 maw makAn satay and tu krita kaNa bawa mcm e2 too fast Too furiOus..akakakakakakaka!!! huhuhu..i stiLL caN byngkaN owH time dalm krita Yg laJu..Bnyk krita laGi sana higHwaY…Bf dia driVe Pun kaN…cucuk2 tu krita dapaN bha…iskiskisk….gila eH….But aNywaY…saYa bersuKuR la sBb masi iduP dan seLmat samPi rumaH…and maYbe ..i wiLL Not foLLow duraNg laGi owH…It was an experience…budak kaMpung ikUt budak kL bawa kriTa…kakakakakakak!!  HeeEee…

i’m wriTiNg 2 blOgs in a daY todaY, just tot That i hve to let it Out sumWhere…my daD JusT caLled me… he’s Fyne…But TheN He goTta go to kk next MondaY, he had a heaRt blOck…he said tHat, His caNcer is haveNt beeN beTter, But TheN, cOme aNother diseaSe…. Asked me wheTher i hve enuff MoNey or Not Over heRe…i said yaH,and he toLd me That he had already bank in again anOther rm500.00….daMn i’m crying~!!! y Is it Hve to be My daD!!! Love hiM sO MucH….sometimes i ThiNk Its Not faIr, wHy iT has To be My daD?? i Hope he’s ok…he’s fiNe…